I’ve been asking myself this question, ‘why do mass or multiple murderers kill themselves after the killing spree?’ Perhaps one of my readers can answer this. Serious or naughty answers are welcome. But the former is better.

This happened many times already. See the pattern of the previous mass murders and the recent Chris Benoit case.

1. Columbine High School Massacre. The two teenagers killed themselves after shooting 15 people dead and wounding others.

2. Virginia Tech Rampage. Seung Hui Cho put a bullet on his head after killing 33 people.

3. Chris Benoit, the famous WWE wrestler. Killed his wife and 10 year old son, then killed himself later.

While i was searching for the “mass murderers” in Google, i found this site: The Mass Murderer List. It says there that:

“Most mass murderers are male, white, conservative and come from relatively stable, lower-middle-class backgrounds.”

I got this “article” from a comment in one of my previous articles entitled What do Tulfo Brothers, NBI, CIDG and NPA Have in Common?

The commenter claims to be a CIDG agent. Hiding behind the name mystery. Is he telling the truth? Only him knows, the poster himself.

I am a CIDG Confidential Agent or “CA”. Personally, I volunteered last year to know what’s really inside in this organization and because also of my interest to carry firearms like my friends do. Although it is under the PNP but it seems that CIDG seems to be the elite police a “policeman of the policemen” smarter and trained than the regular rank and file personnel.

My first “kotong” encounter was when we stopped and searched a timber smuggler. The vehicle was successfully converted to look like a passenger jeep but with a powerful Canter engine and with expired yellow plate. It was not ferrying passengers but rather smuggled lumber of lawaan and hardwood species in various sizes to be delivered to a buyer-retailer and shall be sold beside in our municipal pier.

So we stayed from 12:00 am drinking and slapping the bites of the mosquitoes beneath the canopy of the surrounding trees while we are waiting for the coming of the jeep. We consumed a long-neck Emperador brandy and by around 3:00 am the sound of the jeep’s engine was already identified coming uphill. The jeep was really powerful that in spite of its load it was able to carry the lumber effortlessly. The jeep has a motorcycle escort scouting the highway in advance about 100-200 meters or 10 minutes away and if it encounters some anomalous parked vehicles it swerves back and inform the jeep with smuggled lumber to stop or return to the sawmill or talyer about 3 kilometers away.

We divided our team into three groups. Three were aboard the stainless steel jeep and the two other rode in a motorcycle each with 2 personnel. One of our motorcycle has chased the advance motorcycle escort and our stainless steel jeep has overtaken the smuggler jeep and flagged it down to stopped. So we searched the vehicle and the owner told us that there was no lumber. Indeed, if you are not curious you would declare the jeep clean and let it go away. But upon opening the cargo enveloped with blue mantle the lumber was unveiled to us. The the woman owner told us that the lumber was only few and she has a compromise so she told us to let her go. But upon inspecting the bottom of the jeep and at the roof-top the jeep was fully stuffed with good lumber. Some smuggling disguise coco-lumber or copra on display while beneath the piles are the good lumber.

So the haggling start. Our team leader asked for the jeep as exhibit and leave the lumber to the owner while the owner haggled to leave the lumber and allow them to leave with the unlicensed jeep. The other option of the owner was to let them go back to their sawmill. Being an illegallista a smart woman is a good negotiator and she is capable to offer the “unexpected” things to tempt or to titillate the earthly desire of the male operatives.

But the sound of the money is already tingling in the ears of my companions. So I listened to the transaction and did not do anything being a neophyte. The woman boarded our stainless steel jeep then proceeded to the town to get money from her buyer but rather opted later to go to her brother so as not to expose her buyer’s identity. Then, at 4:00 am our jeep has arrived with the money (a Canter jeep is worth 500,000 and the lumber perhaps 20,000) but the grease money is only about ten thousand so by simple mathematics the smart smuggler opted for the lesser amount.

We therefore get the money and proceeded to the market to eat our early breakfast meal. I received my share in the afternoon for the reimbursement of my gasoline expenses, errand participation and text messages during the operation.

What I know from our team leader was that, his “RC” Regional Chief has a birthday the following week and he has to produce money for his pork lechon gift during his natal day and decided to make a this highway robbery act to please his boss “fatal” day.

Why our group has not arrested the jeep as to my suggestion its because the buyer of the lumber is also giving the office with weekly payola of 500-1000 used for buying text load by our Team Leader in monitoring the illegal activities in his command area having no allowance from the CIDG Regional Office. It appears that the money extorted from illegal activities was also used for the surveillance, office supplies, food, entertainment, pocket money for the confidential agents, operational expenses, etc.

Then the lowly paid operatives are sending their salary to their family through ATM and when the money sent is short their “wives” and children will be starving and stopped from their schooling.

So the vicious cycle is repeated exhorting, birthday parties, fiesta celebrations, night clubs, kabits, queridas, surveillance, hot pursuit operations and the like. I presume that the same cycle is propagated at the timber smuggler camp - police payola, family needs, maintenance of the their high cost of living, illegal operations, etc. The unemployed are also selling illegal lumber for a gain of few centavos to meet their needs. All of this at the expense of the environment and lost income of the BIR, also a corrupt agency mandated to collect billions perhaps trillions being remitted to the executive, judiciary and legislative bodies perceived by foreigners as also rigged with graft and corrupt practices.

If you file a case against the smugglers, the office has no competent legal personnel to handle the case so the court battle is lost in favor of the illegallistas and wealthy smugglers. So why file the case and get unexpected results (i.e. administrative cases)? Why not just extort money to maintain the status qou? As I assess the situation the corruption will go on perpetually. The never ending story of the good and evil battle will never be won until our Maker returns to this planet.

And after giving the lechon to the RC our ID’s as CA’s or informants was already approved. Our performance will be assessed and our appointment will be renewed after 6 months. If we cannot live-up to the expectations of our Team Leader our appointment will be canceled, our mission orders will be recalled and our permit to carry weapon (side arms) will be no longer authorized. Hence, our personal interests (business protection and being somebody) in our barangays shall be no longer “respected”.

Being a typical masochist society our “pagkalalaki” and being “siga” in the streets will be significantly reduced. Our role as security personnel and close-in body guards to our provincial governor and municipal mayor will be drastically affected and if our being CA is being recalled or canceled then goodbye to our 0.380, 0.357, 0.45, UZI, MP5, baby Armalite, etc. and our family will be starving and without firearm licenses we will be forced to look for money through the power of our guns. The CIDG will now issue a warrant of arrest against us, turning our long-time friends into foes just because of MONEY!

Nobody in this world can live through life without being emotionally affected by other people’s criticism. Be it positive or the opposite. There are a thousand ways to react to a criticism. A few literally silenced those who authored the criticism, others just brush it off in apathy, a number lashed back or whine and some just ponder other people’s words about them and may speak softly in response or just keep mum about it because there are more important things in life.I admire the last one. I want to constantly be that type of guy I talked about above. When I do, I just recall a pastor’s quote I heard many years ago, they are not paying you to listen to their opinions.

A friend who went to UP Diliman in Manila for her college education laughed at me when I told her over the phone that my accent is like Manny Pacquiao’s when I speak tagalog. Please read this and this to know why. If you’re too lazy to read that, an example is in the US, the southern/cowboy accent are laughingstock by those in the north. In China, Beijing Chinese ridicule those accents in the provinces.

Nobody is paying me to mimic the accent of Manilans. Besides I love to be identified as a Bisayan or Cebuano while I’m here in Manila. Though I still have to see or hear them laugh at my tagalog accent. Probably I’m just blessed to be associated by good natured tagalogs or they’re downright intimidated of my showbiz looks! Haha!

If you’re worried about what people will say about your appearance, just remember this are they paying you or do you pay them to heed to their opinions?

If your embarrassing past makes you want to hide, again remember this are they paying you or do you pay them to heed to their opinions?’

Although, don’t do anything that’s stupid first. If people start to negatively say things to you because of what you foolishly did to others, then it’s hard to justify by using this magic word: they are not paying you to listen to their opinions.

Don’t be selfish. Be nice by nature.

My very last sexual encounter was 12 years ago. Sexual encounter I mean was the thing in my body that makes me a man penetrating the woman’s softy thing. Did I like it? Of course I did!

Sex is one the most wonderful things on earth. But sex is not the ultimate ecstasy that any human could experience. Sex can do more harm than good. Not because sex itself is harmful. It’s because we, human beings have constantly misused it. Big time at that!

After I went through spiritual renewal many things have changed. My thoughts, ambitions, friends, lifestyle made a complete makeover, so to speak. My ideal qualifications for a woman also changed. But two years prior to my spiritual turnaround in 1997, I had several sexcapades with different women. I even made a literal list. When I counted it, I averaged one woman in every two months. Maybe I’m too slow for some men out there.

Honestly, I’m enjoying my standard of living now. But life is not always smooth. There were times that I was put in a crossroads where a yummy woman and I are the only people in a room. Many times it happened. Both of our eyes were staring at each other. I could feel the sexual magnet. Thankfully, nothing sexual happened. Not even a kiss!

Will I want to have sex again? I would love to, but only at the correct time. When that time comes the whole bedroom would look like world war three!!!

You may perceive me as strange or fool or whatever. But we’re not on the same boat.

Against the flow!

In this life I don’t have to beat around the bush especially in pursuit of earning an income. Not just any mere income, but in considerable, extensive, huge, vast, enormous amount and so on.

Being rich has more perks than being in the ordinary simple life. I don’t want to have simple life. Not necessarily become popular, but I just don’t want to live a life of simplicity. Although I have to put myself out before getting those perks.

The Bible doesn’t say to avoid getting rich. But Jesus warns those who are wealthy not engross their minds of what they have. Not to love money, but love God first. Money is not the root of all evil. The correct verse is the love of money is the root of all evil.

Advantages:
1. A rich man’s ideas are always welcome. When he talks, the people listen. Best if use for the good of others.
2. He usually gets the best seat in the room even if he doesn’t ask for it.
3. He can eat any food that he likes, and can avoid and find alternative for the food that he doesn’t like.
4. Practically go to places where most people cannot.
More positive advantages:
5. Because he has the money, he is able to help those who doesn’t have.

It is appalling to hear the conduct of other rich people especially the men. A famous Filipino wealthy businessman who rose to fame because of his rags to riches story was asked this question in an interview, Are you always faithful to your wife? and his honest answer was, That’s a really hard question.

Selfish is the man who says, I just want to have what’s enough for me and my family.

Remember, I want to grow richer, for positive reasons most certainly! Send your money to my Paypal address: guapwong at gmail.com. Or if you want to send checks you can inquire of my postal address through that email.

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www.compassion.com
www.worldvision.com
www.care.org I once donated here!

Thanks in advance!

The story that I am about to tell you happened many years ago inside a born-again Christian church in the capital city of the Philippines. This was recalled to me by a Cebuano friend who migrated to Manila together with her husband.

A young graduating student pastor who hailed from Surigao was asked to preach one Easter Sunday morning. It was part of his baptism of fire before doing fulltime as a pastor in his hometown.

The church that he was about to preach in has a bible school and satellite churches in almost major provincial cities around the country. It has high profiled members including showbiz personalities, and a number of wealthy families. (more…)

This is applicable to all types of people, whether you are a citizen of a prosperous country or an inhabitant of a wasteland. This will basically work on people with different religious background.

This is based on my own personal experience. You must have or do the following, not necessarily in order.

1. Be positive and optimistic about everything even if the atmosphere around you is opposite of what you wanted to be in. Refuse to succumb to the desperation even if you’re a citizen of a troubled nation or you are in a crumbling marriage or you’re a member of a broken family.

Think positive thoughts, believe that you’re present troubles are just temporary; it will only help you grow as a person. Do not let emotions control, but be in control of it. Do not be apathetic, but learn to control your emotions.

An example is if a certain citizen of a country where the demented state of government, the corrupt police, and the political condition makes him want to throw up because he just can’t swallow everything he witness.

What he wisely does is talk less about the negativities that he sees and hears and just focuses on what he can offer to his country.

2. Read books on topics about inspirational and accounts of people who overcame obstacles and be encouraged by it.

Majority of the books I read are Bible inspired. If you don’t like even the mere thought of the Bible or Christianity, then meticulously search non-Christian based books in your favorite online or traditional bookstores.

I have read the Power of Your Words by E.W. Kenyon, it is Bible-based, and the book teaches on speaking positive words. I’m pretty sure you can find non Christian authors that deals with similar subject.

Do not think of the Bible as a religious book; consider it as any other book. I’m sure you will find gems inside as I do. Read about Joseph called the Dreamer in Genesis 37 to 48.

3. Speak positive and optimistic words. When you are in the midst of a problem that seems too hard to find a solution, reject any urge to say negative words on yourself. If you do that it would only deteriorate your emotional condition, and most likely will worsen the problem.

4. Pursue a dream that you love to do. Do not let money be your goal. If you make money your master, you will lose your focus.

Let others benefit from your dreams, not just yourself. Dreamers are not selfish. Selfish people should not take part.

If you love writing, or want to teach to kids, then make plans for it.

Even if you presently lack the knowledge of what you love to do, just continue with it. Make every effort to find ways to learn your craft.

According to Bob Parsons, the owner of Godaddy.com, “When you love something, it tells you all its secrets.”

I used to work in an architectural firm. But the internet got me lured into, and thus the desire to become a Webdesigner was thumping like a heartbeat. So I bought a web design tutorial book, learned web design without my own computer. Here I am now, working fulltime as a Webdesigner.

There was this businessman, his business was doing well. But he sold his construction-related business, went to teaching school, and then setup his own preschool. He feels rewarded while he is with little children. It was a longtime dream of his.

5. There will be dream breakers. Some humans don’t have your line of thinking. Learn not to compromise your dreams to these people. They are your friends, could be your wife or husband, business partners, and could be anyone you thought your can trust. They will laugh at your dreams; they will tell you it’s impossible.

Do not give in no matter what.